I dunno why I didn't think of it sooner, but perhaps I could take pictures of my drawings. Like, with a camera. I've tried it with my comics, but that won't work with them because I can't get, ya know, the whole page in frame and have it still be legible at the same time. But like, it could probably work for smaller drawings that aren't, y'know, part of anything. And God knows I have plenty of those lying around.

So next time I'm online I'll see if I can upload some of my crappy drawings.

Yeah.

Umm... still waiting on a scanner. Still waiting...

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Um, yeah, I've in no way harrassed you. If you notice I was on YOUR side in the whole Caleb thing. If anything, YOU and your friends have been harrassing ME for the past year, and when questioned I'm going to explain that to the dA people. There's no possible way you can get away with having me banned for not doing anything.

So yeah. Plz stop sending all your friends to attack me. Kthxbai

I guess I'll keep doing the Coffee Crew.

But God, my drawings suck. I wanna improve, but I don't wanna change my drawing style. I want it to still be all cartoony and not anatomically-correct. But how can I do one without the other?

I dunno, but until I can scan the comics and draw better, there's not much I can do.

I guess I could try just WRITING and post that, but... a lot of my humour is based around comedic timing. I don't know how I'd do that without visuals. Hrrm. :s

I've decided to give up on my series. Anna hates my art, and it doesn't seem to matter to her that it's just the style of my series and not really the best I can do. Rather than "improve" its style and make it into something I hate doing, I'm just giving up. Enjoying what I do just isn't worth it if she doesn't like it.

Besides, I've been trying to get The Coffee Crew going for, what, five years now, and stupid stuff keeps happening to prevent me from making even one episode. All I've been able to make are the afforementioned comics, and I can't even make the series into a webcomic because I don't have a scanner and will never be able to afford one.

Plus, half of my characters hate me now, and they're all central to the plot. There's no way I can do a series without them. The only characters left would pretty much be me, Goliath, Baby, and the ones that I made up that aren't based on real people. And those characters all suck.

So I'm done. Thank you. Thank you, Anna, for crushing more than one of my dreams.

I'll still be on dA to check my watchlist, but that's it.